Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Mood: Residual excitement.
Music: Somewhere over the rainbow, a la Katherine McPhee
It sucks being online at 11:30 and having no one to talk to. Aren't there any late-nighters like me? *sigh*
Une conversation que je veux vraiment avoir... where are you?
Back to the grindstone tomorrow. Hurry up, weekend!
Things to look forward to:
1) Mackie sleepover.
2) Justin coffee.
3) Kalea sleepover.
4) A tentative, Devin-less karaoke night.
I know there's only like 3 of you that actually read this, but I'm brainstorming the feasibility of straight-boy/straight-girl friendships when one or more of the two parties is in an existing romantic relationship.
One theory:
One of two things will happen. 1) Friendship will deteriorate because Romantic-third-party will get jealous as the friendship deepens. 2) Friendship will turn into romantic relationship and existing one will end.
Thoughts?
PLANS FOR THE SUMMER:
July 5-19 (dates tentative): BC road trip with mom!
August 4-6: Big Valley Jamboree!! --> Badass Jack's trailer, $10/hr, PARTY ALL THE TIME
August 7-8: Vancouver again for Rajaton! (Maybe. If I can get the time off, we'll go. I promise, Wompoo.)
Last week of August: Calgary for a couple days while Cora is there. We'll see what happens.
Things have been a little strange lately but I think we've figured it out. I hope so, anyway. House is taking over my life again. Bed time. Sweet dreams.
This is Mateo showing us how strong he is.
It only goes to show...
[11:33 PM]
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Lonely.
Mood: Okay.
Music: House.
Horoscope for today: Don't blame the rock music for your burnt toast and sour milk cereal. You just need to be more alert. Wake up!
I am wandering aimlessly along dirt roads, drenched in blistering sunlight, gravel crunching uncomfortably beneath sandaled feet.
Horses bearing riders and carriages alike stir up dust that clings to my sweaty face and streaks it with black.
Where am I going, that none of my kin have followed? I know naught but my own feet and their impulse to move onward.
Feet heavier with each step, shirt hot and clinging to hot body, smell of horse and sweat and stillness. The air is stagnant while we soldier on.
We, the lonely wanderers.
It only goes to show...
[7:16 PM]
Thursday, May 04, 2006
In one word: Ugh.
So. I was half an hour late yesterday. Whatever, no big deal. I was just finishing out the week anyway. I put in my one-week's notice on monday, and she didn't have me booked for the weekend. Charlene, that is. The new owner. *HATE* Anyway, so I show up half an hour EARLY today, at 9:30, and make myself some breakfast, and sit down with my book. Now, I was supposed to start at 10. I just want to make it clear that it's absolutely USELESS to have someone start at 10. We open at 10:30, and Charlene and her brother had everything done when I got there. Someone is supposed to start at 9, and then the first person that should be scheduled is at 11. Then someone at 11:30, and then at noon. Right? Four people for lunch. Not too shabby. (Better than 3.)
So she comes to sit down with me and says that after I'm done eating I can go home. I'm like, but I was supposed to work 10-2 today and 12-6 tomorrow. I have a couple regular customers coming in to say goodbye to me in these couple days. I told them my last day was friday. These are people that I've created a relationship with, and that I'll probably never see again. And I told her that. I said, "See, the only thing with that is that I have some regular customers coming in to say goodbye." Of course she didn't care. "Well, we don't really need you. I'll still pay you for today and tomorrow but you can leave when you're done eating." She was pissed off that I didn't work for that HALF-HOUR that I was early for. Whatever.
She was Devin's old assistant manager at Sunterra. They had a long talk about everything, and Devin isn't feeling as pissed at her as he was about what happened with Pam. He told Charlene that if she ever needed him on the weekend or whatever he'd be glad to come help out. I was going to say something to that effect too. But now, she can just kiss my ass if she needs me during the summer. Summer is our busiest time, and she's going to have fun dealing with the lunch rushes and having no staff.
If I was an employer, I would make absolutely sure that no matter what the circumstances were, if I had to let someone go or if they quit, I would have it end on good terms. That way, if I need them in a pinch, I can call them. If they need a reference, they can call me. Common sense, right? This woman has NO idea what she's getting herself into. Burning bridges is what she's doing. After Pam's blow-up, they managed to get back on good terms. But now, Pam is definitely going to tell Charlene where she can shove it if she ever needs help. Pam and Kaylah and I are going out tomorrow night and we're going to try and convince Kaylah to quit too. Kind of dirty and under-handed, but whatever. Kaylah doesn't want to stay if Pam and I aren't there either.
And when the hell am I going to see Leigh again?? Leigh is 15, and I swear she's me in Junior high. She's so much fun to work with even though she has the biggest mouth and is constantly telling stories. I was supposed to work with her on friday. When am I going to see her?
I'm going to write letters to all my co-workers and bring them in on monday when I go in to get my cheque. AND I'm going to take money for my buspass (which I keep forgetting to do.) At least she owes me $29.50 after this stunt.
On the up side, I'm seeing Amy today! Yay! She's going to Britain in 2 days and wanted to see me before she left. I talked to her mom whose voice hit an insane octave when I told her who I was. *giddy* It's so nice re-connecting with old friends. Especially when they instigate it because then you know that they really care.
I talked to my dad today and he got Todd (the big-boss of the Compass Group) to call me. I missed his call cause I was asleep, and then he missed my call because he was in a meeting, so I left a message and am waiting to hear back. I might go back to the Zoo. Yes, yes I know. I hated it there. But it's an okay summer job, I know it, and I'm going to see if they can pay me 9.50 an hour. If they can't I won't do it. But it's not new and scary, which I like. I generally think old jobs are like bad boyfriends. DON'T GO BACK. MOVE FORWARD IN LIFE. But I think this'll be okay. Anyway.
I think I've rambled enough. Amy's going to be here in 25 minutes. EEEEE!
It only goes to show...
[3:19 PM]
Friday, April 14, 2006
Hurrah! Forever since I updated, but here we are again.
My little brother Kalil Bertrand Lavallee was born on March 17th. Such a porker. Mateo is adapting wonderfully, just needs some attention and reassurance. My step-mother asked me to take down the website that I put up for my brother. She watched a documentary about people who look for kids on the internet to go kidnap them. I'm not rolling my eyes, I'm not questioning, I'm just accepting and doing what she wants. Mama bear, you know.
Spineless, slipping through
crevasses, dripping,
in between fingers,
hands clasped as chalice,
waiting.
I'm not a writer,
a fighter with no drive,
no weapon grasped
in sweaty palms
to do what is expected of me.
But there's something to be said
for waiting it out,
secretly watching,
debating interference,
discussing clearance of
absolute absurdity.
A spider atop fibers unseen,
eight eyes still
can't see clearly,
though she'll chance to grasp it.
I probably used all the red flag words in that stupid thing. I don't think I am a writer, guys. I like words but I don't think I can call myself a writer. Whatever. I'll find something else to call myself.
Cathy sold the store! Badass Jack's is now sold to a vietnamese woman and her husband and brother. What does this mean for me? Well, I have to sit down with Charlene and talk about what kinds of hours I want, and then what I want to be paid, and then I'll be putting my two weeks notice in in July. Then it's off to BC with my mom! ROAD TRIP!!! HELL YEAH!!! *ahem.*
That's all for now. I promise it won't be another 2 months before I update again. *grin*
It only goes to show...
[10:59 PM]
